I Drink Good Coffee Every Morning

Title: Colin Hay - I Just Don't Think I'll Ever Get Over You

It's snowing. Not lightly either. If it was rain, it would be pouring down. It's so cold. -8 Celcius degrees at 10 AM in November. Yes, it's the end of November, but it's been this way for quite some time now.

I'm the only one who's up yet. Everyone else's asleep. I couldn't sleep anymore. After a certain time, I just can't, even though it means I've only slept seven hours today, without any plans.

I've been tired a lot lately. Still, now that I CAN sleep much longer, I ain't. I feel slightly tired, but I know I can't sleep. I've tried. Thinking about going back to bed, because it looks better for everyone else. Everybody knows when I fell asleep tonight. I was dreadfully tired back then. Almost fell asleep before I'd been to the bathroom.

Soon it's Christmas once again. I'm looking forward to it. I always do. It's not because of the presents or the food. It's because of everyone's mood and how almost everyone's jolly and happy, and everything seems to be all right! It's because of the Christmas spirit. Also, I like giving away gifts and I like going shopping for it and see that EVERYONE does that! Maybe they don't enjoy it, but at least they do it! And I love how innocent this holiday is to me.
I guess it's about love and being and feeling safe...at least to me.

But Don't Think Twice, It's All Right

Title: Bob Dylan - Don't Think Twice, It's Alright

This song's been stuck to my mind for most of the day. I discovered it fully today, and it's...it's VERY good! I'm starting to like early Dylan better lately. I think it all depends on how you're introduced to the material.

Today's been a bit of a special/weird day. First, I woke up this morning with an aching throat (just like yesterday), my nose did no longer have the breathing function enabled and I caughed a lot and didn't feel too well.

Getting to school, I was doing better. But then again, I've been living on throat helpers all day. Without them, my throat's just really painful.

Then around my eating break, I discovered we were gonna have a test today in my last class, which I was totally unaware of, because I wasn't at classes yesterday, since I had a big presentation I was holding yesterday, so it was still school though.

During my second last class, I was feeling so ill, I thought I was going to have to go home, but I pulled through, and got to my test, which I knew was going to go okay, but since I didn't have my book with me, I thought it would be hard. Luckily, I was so good at Flash, that I actually managed to make quite a good little Flash movie.

It was supposed to be a guy, standing a little to the right of the center of the film, out on a field, watching a forrest on the other side of the screen, and standing there with a rifle, then a yellow bird was to appear from his side of the picture, and fly two rounds over the man's head, before getting shot down, and then turn red as it was shot, and then turn into a blue ball when it got to the ground, for then to be kicked towards the woods, turning smaller and smaller. And that's what I made!

Now, then, when I was done, I was headin' for the bus, but I was a little too late for my favorite bus, so I waited for a bus to come, and then I was gonna take one I never take, but I mixed it with another one, so I ended up another place. I got off as soon as I could, but decided after a while not to take the next bus that came, and rather walk home instead. It was about an hour of walking. I was REALLY sweaty when I got back home, so I had to take a shower (yes, I'm not in a very good shape).

So to make it short and to make you see what's a bit special about today, it's that I'm not feeling too good, I think I'm coming down with something unless I can prevent it now, but still I walked home for the first time...EVER! AND I managed to do well on a test I didn't know about before only a couple of hours before it was!

It's Hard To Find One Rich Man In Ten With A Satisfied Mind

Title: Johnny Cash - A Satisfied Mind (not the original artist, but it's a good cover)

I think I'm very...satisfied right now. I feel like things are coming together nicely, despite it perhaps not going that way. Maybe it's just the morning, and how I feel things right now is what does it, but that's not what I'll blog about right now.

Today, my girlfriend is coming to visit me. I'm REALLY looking forward to it! It'll be really great to see her again (though it's "only" been 2 days since the last time). When you're in a long distance relationship (or your current relationship was a long distance one), you just can't really meet your girlfriend enough.

My summer break is ending in three days (as in I've got school on Wednesday). It's gone past me WAY too fast, and I didn't do all the things I were supposed to do. But when does one really do all the things you're supposed to do through the summer break? I don't think I've done that a single time. We set too high goals for ourselves.

I'm not really great in math. Actually, when I don't think a lot about math, I do VERY many mistakes. Today, I thought 4.99 + 4.99 + 7.99 + 3.99 would be just under 20. Of course, if it were 7 + 3, and not the .99's, I'd be correct, but it wasn't so, so I'm gonna have to think things more through.

Yesterday, I was at my local instrument shop. I nearly bought a Tascam DP-004, but I went there mainly because I wanted a whammy bar for my guitar. The reason I didn't buy it, was because I apperently doesn't have enough money. Good thing the machine didn't work then, because otherwise, I REALLY would be broke! Anyways, an old and dear friend of mine has offered me to send me his Tascam DP-01 FX Portastudio, so I think that'll have to do for my sake. Whatever happened to the product I once ordered there, I don't know.

But now I'm gonna have to leave you, because I'll have to get ready to pick up my girlfriend, but I'll leave you with some questions for you to answer:
1. What's been your plans for this summer?
2. Where would you most of all like to go?
3. When do you start school?

Fly On Little Wing

Title: The Jimi Hendrix Experience - Little Wing

I wish I could be so much more than I am. For now, I can't, but I'm struggling towards that goal. I wanna be everything I can. But I can't be that either.

Tomorrow...or later today, perhaps it is, since it's over midnight now, I'm not going to be doing a lot of things. I'll try to get me a whammy bar on my precious guitar and try to visit my granma, since she's been nagging about it for a week or so now, and I'm free tomorrow.

Right now, Derek And The Dominos is the best music for me. The title is really from the cover made by them today, but ALWAYS other, it's Jimi's song to me. I just had the Derek version stuck to my mind when I woke up this morning. It's a good cover, but it's not NEARLY as great as Jimi's original version from his VERY fine album "Axis: Bold As Love". Though, all three of Jimi's albums are VERY fine albums to me, there's something about Axis that makes me feel it SHOULD be my favorite by him. Jimi means much more to me than I ever give him credit for.

Today I've been with my girlfriend, and we're doing fine lately. I feel I'm not the easiest to be with lately, and also that I can't control my obsessions as much as I used to be able to. And I'm REALLY bad at choosing my battles lately, and that leaves me losing a lot of battles that aren't really important to me, but becomes so, and that brings me down. My mood is really changing a lot lately.

I really like The Rolling Stones' music now a days. But you've probably already discovered that. They've got some of the finest music I know of, but I've been trying to hold back those feelings because I didn't see myself as much of a Stones fan, but in reality, I love their work, at least back in the 60's, so yeah, I feel it's okay that I listen a lot to them lately, because it suits me. I've even started getting into "Exile On Main St.". Only a few songs I don't feel like I really like yet, but that's just a few listens away.

I'm soon gonna start going to school again, and it's a mix between scary and sadening. It wasn't going to be like this. I was supposed to quit school now and work this year, but I couldn't get no work, and Google AdSense has kicked me out of their program as well, so I can't really gain any extra money from them either. I don't know what I am to use my education for, because I won't work with something within this field. I think everybody knows, but not everyone are admitting to know it.

Everybody Knows This Is Nowhere -Neil Young

Have You Ever Seen The Rain?

Title: Creedence Clearwater Revival - Have You Ever Seen The Rain

I've been awake and fallen asleep and been awake and been aware of whether I'm asleep or not for over an hour now. Right now, I'm just lying in my bed, listening to the rain, which really pours down right now. It's always nice listening to the rain, especially when you fall asleep or wake up. I like the sound of rain.

But today, is NOT the perfect day for it to pour down. In three hours from now, I'm supposed to be in Oslo, going to a festival to see a lot of artists, but mainly The Stooges. If the world was under my command, the festival would've been exposed by one day.

I'm going with the beautiful ms Universe, which I had an anniversary with yesterday. For new readers, I call my girlfriend ms Universe for her identity to be a bit hidden. We've been together 19 months. 19 MONTHS! I can't believe she still likes me after 19 MONTHS with being my girlfriend, but somehow, she does. I love her more than anything else.

Being together for this long of a time at our age, makes a lot of grown ups think about how far they had come after our time of being together. My parents had moved in together quite a long time ago by this time.

But back to today, because I live today (unlike Jimi Hendrix, who said he didn't live today even back when he was alive). I know I'll be tired as hell when I get back home today, because:
1. It's raining
2. It's a festival
3. I'm gonna take a trainride home
4. I'm always quite tired after having done...anything?

Three quick questions for you, the reader:
1. Do you like listening to the rain?
2. Have you been to, or are you going to, a concert lately?
3. What's the longest relationship you've ever been in?

Love Is Love And Not Fade Away

Title: Buddy Holly (or The Rolling Stones) - Not Fade Away

Buddy Holly and The Rolling Stones said it well. Love is love, and not fade away. If it's love, it won't fade now, will it? But what if it feels like it's fading, or rather slipping away? Is it still love or what is it? I don't know.

I'm sitting here, listening to The Rolling Stones now. I'm gonna add two-three movies to my iPod later on, and then hopefully watch a movie or two or something. I don't know why I'm so negative to The Rolling Stones going up on my Last.fm. After all, they've got some of my favorite albums of all time (so far: Beggars Banquet and Let It Bleed) and some of the finest songs I can think of (Wild Horses, Play With Fire, "Paint It, Black"...) and they're the kind of band I like: From the 60's, playing rock'n'blues and was there before the "big scene" got there and got some GREAT harmonica playing. Damn it, I'm gonna go ahead and listen more to them and get them UP on my Last.fm!

When I listened through "December's Children" yesterday (for the first time), I didn't like it all that much, but it's growing on me. Growing fast! Almost as fast as The Monks' "Black Monk Time" did not long ago (but that's like the fastest ANY album have grown on me as well, cus I think I thought it was PERFECT from the first listen).

I think I'll watch "The Searchers" today. The John Wayne movie. He's got a great reputation, but I haven't really enjoyed any of his works yet, so I'm looking forward to it. I'm just a bit disappointed with myself for watching "Casablanca" before all them other movies I bought when I was in London this summer, because it's like the best damn movie I've EVER seen!

Mercy Mercy

Title: The Rolling Stones - Mercy, Mercy

Music was better way back before. Of course, I'm not supposed to say that, being an artist trying to become something great, but it really was. Though it may've been simpler than today's music, it still was more advanced. It's not ALL about HOW you play a song, but HOW you play a song. "Did he throw monkey shit at his guitar while recording that riff? THAT'S what makes THAT sound?!"

I don't know why I put "Mercy Mercy" as this title. It's just the opening song of one of the Rolling Stones' albums that was waiting for me at home when I got back today. Of course, the album I'm referring to is "Out Of Our Heads", the US edition. The other Rolling Stones' album waiting for me was "December's Children (And Everybody's)". It's just one of those albums I'm obsessed with, without EVER having heard it! Now, you may wonder "why do you want the American releases when you don't live in America, and The Rolling Stones ain't from America?", and there's a quite simple answer to that. Unlike The Beatles, the American releases is REALLY great! I'm not saying American-Beatles is shite, just that I prefer their official British releases, while with The Stones, I like them American. There's so much more I think I'm gaining from it, and what I don't get, I'm gonna get in British editions. After all, I'm only interested in The Stones pre-Goat's Head Soup (that means I'm NOT interested in G.H.S.!).

I'm not sure what I should do with tomorrow. There's TOO MANY things I wanna fix. I think a lot of the day's gonna go to watch movies, try to get WordPress straight and listen to some of my new albums and read them magazines I bought today in Sweden. I bought four magazines, actually. Not usual of me to do, but there was four magazines I could NOT leave, so I'm happy about it.

I'm starting to get a bit pissed that I'm not getting any answers from Google about Google AdSense, since I wanna make some money when I'm blogging here and there, and they aren't opening my account...or at least haven't told me they've done so...*checking*...Nope, still blocked, and been so for two months. I ain't diggin' it.

Wait A Minute, That's MY Girl!

Title: The Monks - That's My Girl

I know I'm not blogging a lot lately, but I'm just not in that mood lately. But now there's no one to talk to, and I'm all alone and I'm crying, so I decided I should write here, because...I don't know what else to do. But I don't know what to write here either, so...never mind

I Did Everything, Everything I Wanted To, I Let Them Use You, For Their Own Ends

Title: Joy Division - Shadowplay (may have heard The Killers' cover version of this song, which is a great cover)

This song inspire me. I can't get Joy Division out of my brain. never. It'll always be luring there. No matter my happiness and no matter the music I'm listening to. Shadowplay haunts me the most. Lyrically, that is. Other than that, "Atrocity Exhibition" haunts me. I'll bet the drum beat of that song is the beat of my heart. It won't go away.

I don't know why, but I never write anymore. Maybe it's because I don't have the time. Maybe it's because I don't like writing down all my thoughts like I used to, no matter how impulsive they were. Maybe it's because I'm not thinking anymore. Maybe it's because I can't.

I don't know the exact reason why, but I want to write again. I don't know what, but I want to write something. If only it's my blog, telling people what I think, despite there probably only being less than 5 people reading it. You should be happy if you can please at least one person in this cruel world. I think my mentor John Dorian (Zach Braff's character in Scrubs) taught me that. It's a good rule of thumb.

I wish I could be great again. I probably hasn't reached my greatest moments yet, but I feel like me as a person is on a downhill. I used to be brilliant. I think I could be whatever I wanted to be. It's not too late yet. I think I feel this way a lot because my dad keeps letting me know I was better at school and everything before. I don't know if I'm really good at anything I can make a living out of anymore. I think I can be a great artist, but I don't think anyone will put their money on me, so I think I'll fade away and perhaps one band or something will be inspired by my songs, 30 years after my death, and covering one of the songs. I don't know. I know I can write...or at least that I could.

I felt like I could write like a God for a while. But I don't feel that way anymore. Getting A's stopped being such a big deal when I heard EVERYONE was getting them somewhere else. I never got an A in anything besides English. Now I hear about lots of people getting A's on their exams, which I was one of three to get an A in. I hate being told I wasn't as great as I think I was. I feel like people keep reminding me of that, and that just makes me...it makes me want to just explode a large area of the world and just show everyone exactly HOW great I CAN be. But I never will. I'm too busy. People don't see me as busy, but I am. I'm busy being what I always knew I'd try to be my best at. Lately, I haven't been so busy with that, and it's noticeable. I'm learning a lot of things, but I'm not being so good at what I was ment to be.

I need to become something great to show the world I CAN be better than people at something, because right NOW, I feel like I suck so much I shouldn't really be with people. I have dreams of going to a cabin with all my instruments and having a recording studio all set up for me there, and just record a whole lot of stuff and make masterpieces. It probably will never happen, but I wish I could. I wish I could forget about all the bad things I've heard of. They just keep getting more and more, and I just let them flow against me.

I've become something people laugh of, when I used to be someone people admired. Try it, and you will feel how hard it is.

Get Rhythm When You Get The Blues

Title: Johnny Cash - Get Rhythm

Some days are just perfect for Johnny Cash music. I'm not gonna lie to you, I can NOT listen to Johnny Cash at any given day, but today, it suits me to listen to my new Johnny Cash CD. Or should I say "new", since it's his very first recordings. The Sun Recordings. Those legendary Sun Recordings. But I like them. I guess I'm a bit Johnny Cash-mainstream, because I like the Sun Recordings, At Folsom Prison, At San Quentin and the American recordings best. But then again, I haven't listened to much other by him than those recordings either, so what do I know.

I've been listening to Pavement until now. Since I bought two deluxe CD's by them, I figured I should listen a bit. I liked "The Killing Moon" cover of the Echo & The Bunnymen song, which was a good thing I did. I think I liked the album itself as well of "Brighten The Corners" and "Crooked Rain Crooked Rain".

I don't really know what to do today, because I suddenly fixed my major problem, miss Universe is busy it seems and not with me, and I've been checking for jobs (none really for me, since I don't know ANYTHING about cars other than the basics, and I've got allergy, so I couldn't work as a flowerist), and I've read up a bit on Ubuntu. Becoming adult isn't always much fun. It's better when you're growing up with someone (like I am with miss Universe).

I hate how my parents acts towards me. They keep treating me like I'm a little child. I'm afraid of never getting rid of them, because they're really holding me back. If only the world was like I'd want it to be.

Yesterday All My Troubles Seemed So Far Away

Title: The Beatles - Yesterday

I thought this was a good time to write a blog post at. I just fixed the sound on my computer! It hasn't worked for quite a few days, which was QUITE annoying, especially when I wanted to see a movie or something with miss Universe, which I'll get back to. This post is to be posted...LONG after I've written it (I wrote it at 01.31 AM at Friday 9th of July).

You see, the past seven days, I've been with miss Universe EVERY DAY! And it has just been the best week EVER! We're amazingly close! But the best part has been left out to tell you yet...I think. She came to me five days ago and was here till yesterday (or Wednesday, that is). Which means, she slept her for three nights! Those three nights were the first time we slept together (in its litteral meaning, not sex). First night was a bit hot, but the other two nights were just amazingly perfect. I loved sleeping with her by my side SO much! I hope we can do it again soon!

Today, I've been with her and seen the last Shrek-movie...in 3D at the cinema! We've had a day that I don't feel like sharing too much with you (I'll share it with my diary instead), but I CAN tell you that we started a book circle, consisting of only the two of us, which is the best circle I can think of! First book to read is Agatha Christie's "4.50 From Paddington". I'm looking forward to starting! I rarely look THIS much forward to reading a book, but this one I do. We both bought ourselves one version each.

Now it'll be quite some time before I see miss Universe again, because she's going on a holiday with her dad. I hope she'll have a great trip. I really do! But she mustn't forget about me though, because I'll be at home missing her and still being IN love with her, so I don't want her to get a new boyfriend or anything. Yes, I'm EXTREMELY jealous, but luckily in a way, so is she, so it's tolerated in our relationship.

Oh, and by the way, for those who are MADLY interested in what I buy, the last blog post (or something) where I said I'd bought some vinyls, I forgot to mention Violent Femmes' "Hallowed Ground"

Think I'll Get Out Of Town

Title: Neil Young - On The Beach

After having a REALLY short post yesterday, I now am going to give y'all a bit of a longer update.

On...Tuesday last week, I went to England, Brighton to be precise. At least I think it was Tuesday. But yeah, I've been to Brighton, and it was like going to the warm south, but not going all that south, and had lots of people talking and understanding English (since it is in England). It was nice there, and I'd like to go back there again with my girlfriend, miss Universe, because it was a great place to go with your loved one.

Then, after being there till...Friday, I went to London. I've been to the Hard Rock Calling festival, but "only" from The Hives on on the main stage on Friday, and the full Sunday but again, only on the main stage. Paul McCartney was GREAT! And I was REALLY positively surprised by Elvis Costello's show as well, because I like bluegrass-concerts, and he held one, to my surprise.

I've bought some DVD's and CD's while I was in England, though.

CD's:

-Muse - Origin Of Symmetry

-Vampire Weekend - Contra

-Bo Diddley - Bo Diddley/Go Bo Diddley (2CD)

-Black Sabbath - Sabbath Bloody Sabbath (Remastered Edition)

-Pink Floyd - A Saucerful Of Secrets

-J. Tillman - I Will Return/Long May You Run, J. Tillman (2CD)

-Vera Lynn - Gold: 100 Songs From A Life In Music (5CD)

-Johnny Cash - Walking The Line: The Legendary Sun Recordings (3CD)

-The Stone Roses - The Stone Roses: 20th Anniversary Legacy Edition (2CD + DVD)

-Pavement - Brighten The Corners: Nicene Creedence Ed. (2CD)

-Pavement - Crooked Rain Crooked Rain: L.A.'s Desert Origins (2CD)

DVD's:

-Full Metal Jacket (Deluxe Edition)

-Definitely, Maybe

-The Lost Boys

-The Ex

-2001: A Space Odyssey (Digitally Restored And Remastered)

-Public Enemies

-Casablanca

-Dog Day Afternoon (Two Disc Special Edition)

-The Searchers (Two-Disc Special Edition)

-Taxi Driver

-Nowhere Boy (Limited Edition: Includes exclusive Sam Taylor-Wood photo album)

Other than that, I was at the "We Will Rock You"-musical, which I've been to before, and I liked it this time as well, but in a different more knowledgeable way.

Well, I got back home on...Wednesday, was it? Yeah, at the end of the Wednesday I got back home. On Thursday, I was visited by the lovely miss Universe (my girlfriend), which was a LOVELY day! We didn't do much at all, really, but what we did, was SO SUPER NICE! We just layed around in my room all day, really, and had a VERY big dinner, which made my little girl very ill, so she didn't feel too well afterwards. Not because the food was bad, but quite the opposite. It was so good that she ate too much. I had to take a bit care of her then, which was nice as well.

On Friday, which was yesterday, I went to her place. We were at her bank, since she was depositing some money. Then we went to get a McFlurry each (yes, we eat McDonald's ice cream, and it was LOVELY!), and then we went to this great record store where you can buy used vinyls and CDs or new CDs and vinyls and everything, where I'm trying to get a job, and there was bought some vinyls.

Vinyl's bought:

-Paul McCartney - Tug Of War
-John Lennon & Yoko Ono - Double Fantasy

-The Cars - The Cars

-Leonard Cohen - Songs Of Leonard Cohen

-Coldplay - Life In Technicolor II (which is my girlfriend's)

and I bought an album I can't remember the name of now, which had some of the best songs by Jerry Lee Lewis, Carl Perkins and Eddie Cochran + the platters or something.

After we'd been there, we went to a place to buy me a bottle opener to have on my key chain, which we were to use on a bottle of coca cola on glass for each of us. We went to the opera and sat on the roof there and drank them up, then we went inside after having been on the roof for a long time, and sat inside just talking for a really long time...until we were chased out, actually. Then we pretty soon went to hers after I had purchased a card which makes me able to take as many buses and such in her region for thirty days. And we ate dinner there, and then I had to go home.

Today I was at my girlfriend's place again, but neither one of us were feeling all quite well to begin with, so we went home to hers almost right away, and just hung out all day. We saw the movie "The Beach", by the way. I went home before the dinner was to be eaten there.

Tomorrow, she's coming here for a sleepover which lasts till the upcoming Wednesday. I CAN NOT WAIT!

Just Let Me Hear Some Of That Rock'n'Roll Music

Title: The Beatles - Rock & Roll Music

It's been a great fucking long time without any blogging now, so I'm gonna give y'all a quick update:
I'M BACK FROM ENGLAND!

Now for a longer update, check in at this blog TOMORROW!

We'll Meet Again

We'll meet again
Don't know where
Don't know when
But I'm sure we'll meet again
Some sunny day

Title: Johnny Cash (but ORIGINALLY Vera Lynn in the 40's) - We'll Meet Again

The title song of today is one of my favorite songs of all time. Just so you know

I'm going away for quite a few days from tomorrow on. I'm leaving for England. Brighton first, then London. I'm probably gonna be blogging a little bit with my mobile. My mobile blog is, as said before, http://soniclizzzmobile.blogspot.com/

Don't think there's a lot more I'll be saying now, since nothing too much has happened now. But be sure to check up on my mobile blog, because I won't be blogging here for a while!

Have a GREAT summer!

Maybe Someday You'll Come And Save Me

Title: Lazlo Bane - Midday Train

Seems like my girlfriend just read my last blog post. So now she's opening up to me, but I feel like it's more to prove me wrong than to convince me, if you understand what I mean. But yeah, I probably should be there more for her now, since she just ended going to a school she's been at for 10 years. It's just that I feel like she's a long way from me (mentally, not physically, since she's as long away as always physically) and I just quit the school I've been going to for two years, and are most likely never going to meet some of those friends I've had there, and some of the friends I've had for twelve years, and that's just hard on me right now. But we're not talking about that. And no one's told me they wish me a good summer.

"And maybe someday you'll come and save me
Just before the midday train comes crashing over to take my number
Well could it be, I just believe
And only have an optimistic afternoon"

-Lazlo Bane

Bury Me Deep Inside Your Heart

Title: HIM - Bury Me Deep Inside Your Heart

I think I'm turning jealous a lot more than usually lately, because my girlfriend seems to be uninterested in me, and not love me anymore, to be quite honest with you. She doesn't always say it back when I tell her I love her, she stopped having me in her nick on MSN and I feel like she's embarresed about me. And my jealous mind also tells me that she can remove me from her nick and such so that she can get other guys interested in her and have an affair behind my back.

You're all I ever wanted, yes you, my love

And I'm Ready To Take Your Sweet Six Six Six

Title: HIM - Your Sweet Six Six Six

Right now, I'm a bit pissed off. I just got HIM's "Razorblade Romance" as a vinyl today, which WAS supposed to have this track list:

I Love You (Prelude To Tragedy)
Poison Girl
Join Me In Death
Right Here In My Arms
Gone With The Sin
Razorblade Kiss
Bury Me Deep Inside Your Heart
Heaven Tonight
Death Is In Love With Us
Resurrection
One Last Time
Sigillum Diaboli
The 9th Circle

But instead, it's got this track list:

Your Sweet Six Six Six
Poison Girl
Join Me In Death
Right Here In My Arms
Bury Me Deep Inside Your Heart
Wicked Game
I Love You (Prelude To Tragedy)
Gone With The Sin
Razorblade Kiss
Resurrection
Death Is In Love With Us
Heaven Tonight
Sigillum Diaboli
One Last Time

Now, you might say "What's the big deal? You got one more song!" but the big deal, is that that ONE song I lost from the first album that was replaced with two others, was the song I mainly bought this vinyl for. "The 9th Circle" is nearly impossible to get a hold on at all, and to get it on vinyl is nearly impossible, so therefore I bought this album, since I love HIM and I want as many of their songs as possible (since absolutely EVERY HIM song I've ever heard has been perfect, and I've heard them all).

But it's got pretty good quality. Some skipping of songs, but mainly great. Had a lot of problems to get Audacity to be able to play it though, but it seems to work...for now.

Yesterday evening I was out fishing with a friend of mine. We both rode scooters (or mopeds) out there, which was his first time ever driving a moped. We didn't get a single fish, but I don't regret it despite of that.

Today, I've been home all day because there just isn't any school. I apperently got really sleepy from yesterday's trip, because I slept for 11 hours straight tonight. That's...quite a lot, isn't it?

It Ain't Me Babe

Title: Bob Dylan - It Ain't Me Babe

I'm just so sick of hearing about how all guys look handsome in a suit, especially when I know that it's not about me. It makes me jealous and it's just...tiring me out. Can't wait for this school day to be over (despite it not even having started yet)

People Are People So Why Should It Be?

Title: Depeche Mode - People Are People

I've probably got a big problem with my jealousy. Or I guess I do. But you try to not be jealous when your girlfriend is the perfect girl for you and she's surrounded by boys she's been in love with all the time, and she's talking to them, a bit flirty with them and touches them. Even on their asses.

But let's talk about something else, then. I'm currently feeling like I'm gonna throw up any second now. I didn't handle the chiropractor therapy too well today, and haven't been quite healthy since I went to him. I've got some headache as well, but it's nothing too big. I'm REALLY cold now. Like, freezing. I've got to stay cold, or at least not hot, before going to bed these days, because otherwise I won't be able to sleep at night for some hours, and that's just...not a good idea with my thoughts lately. Things can get pretty fucked up by that.

Now I started talking negatively again. Let me talk about some great things then.

The greatest I can think of right now (that's news), is that today, I got two CD's by mail! It was Cary Brothers' "Waiting For Your Letter" EP and Lazlo Bane's "11 Transistor". I LOVE Cary Brothers' music, and especially the song "Waiting For Your Letter", but I've unfortunately not been able to get hand on it before I bought it AND Lazlo Bane's "11 Transistor", which is a CD I've been looking for since 2003 or 2004, from an eBay-seller in Hong Kong. I'm SUPER happy about receiving them both, but unfortunately, I can't use MY computer to rip the "11 Transistor"-album onto my computer, so gotta use my dad's computer or something tomorrow.

Tomorrow, I'll also be going to school, which RARELY (luckily) is the case lately. We're gonna be having a...oh, I don't know. Something to try to make us figure out what the fuck we wanna do with our lives. Always boring, but hopefully, I'll have some "friends" there that I can talk to and be bored with. Always fun to embarress some of them.

I think I miss my grandfather

Some Days I Feel Like Cryin'. Don't matter if it's rain or sun

Title: Jeremy Kay - Have It All

Today's song is a song which you should listen to RIGHT NOW! I've got MANY personal feelings attached to this song, but I've kinda forgotten to LISTEN to it (I've been singing on it every month for 7 years) for the last 3-4 years. Despite it sounding like a sad song on the title, it's...it is what you make of it! I can make it into a sad song or into a great happy tune.

I just wrote it down now, because really, I feel like I just go from happy to sad in a gun shot, and it's just...not that cool. I feel like I'm not living up to my expectations. I feel like people are expecting me to be the coolest, funniest, smartest, most clever guy ever, and that I should be making music that fits others better. I don't know what I should do with my life. I wish I didn't have to live up to so many people's expectations.

Sometimes, I wish I could just be

Dear Readers

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-Sonic Lizzz

I Just Can't Get You Out Of My Head

Title: Kylie Minogue - Can't Get You Out Of My Head

(yes, I like some of Kylie's music)

Today, I've been with my girlfriend for 17 MONTHS! That's quite a lot of time! When I also tell you that we've never had a big arguement, then that's pretty huge! I still love her, and keep falling madly in love with her, and I still think she's the perfect girl for me!

Other than that, this day is...boring, actually, because I'm just preparing for the preparation of my oral exam, which is tomorrow at 10 AM. At 10.30 AM is my actual oral exam. I'm not really nervous, but that's probably because I don't have high expectations for myself.

I've learned what an asymptote is, what a tangent is, what a secant is and what an interval is. I've also written down my explanations for them are (so if anyone's having trouble finding out what they are, come ask me). I've also learned a lot of other things, but they're not THAT concrete, so I can't really tell you. I feel like I'm getting better in math, which MIGHT save my math grade this year (but most likely not).

See You At The Bitter End

Title: Placebo - The Bitter End

The title for this post, is from a great song by one of my favorite bands. Check out Placebo if you haven't already. And buy "Sleeping With Ghosts", because it's one of the best albums EVER made! It's the most perfect album I can think of that's not made by HIM (or The Beatles)!

I don't know how long it's been since I last blogged now, but it's not really that important either. Today I got a crappy news, and that was that for oral exam, I'm gonna have MATH! It's the worst case scenario for me, because I suck at math, and has done since the start of 8th grade. Or, I started to suck then, but it's when I started High School that I REALLY started to notice, since I got good grades throughout primary school. I don't know WHAT I'm supposed to have about in math though, just SOMETHING from the book (which means it can LITTERALLY be ANYTHING within 59 different subjects! The task itself isn't given me before half an hour before I am to hold my exam...and I can't use ANY communication at that moment.

I don't think I'm doing too good myself lately. My mood is jumping a lot, and I have VERY little control over my OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, search on Wikipedia if you don't know what it is). Hopefully, I'll get better soon, but it doesn't seem like it at this very moment. I'm not sure how to handle the mood swings I'm feeling either. I went from being happy to a mood best described as "I wish I could "kill" myself, but not really die, just get lost from all reality, because I suck so badly". I could start with lithium, I believe it is that'll help against mood swings, but it's VERY dangerous. Should be because you got major problems as a manic depressive, and my manic depressions aren't that bad in a way lately, I feel it's my OCD. Or what the hell do I know. I can't think very long backwards now a days either, just a couple of days.

Stigmata - Blood And Gasoline

Title: The 69 Eyes - Stigmata (no matter which version)

Don't think I've blogged for a day or two now, so why not do it now that I've got the oppotunity and has SOMETHING to blog about.

Yesterday, my girlfriend was at my place again. We had a LOVELY time together. We were on a "picnic" for three hours. That picnic was held by the...lake or sea or something, on a cool rock. We got there by driving my moped. Not entirely legal, but it didn't seem like it was bothering anyone. It will most likely be repeated again some day. Probably this summer.

Today though, I'm still on a strike, which means I'm home, and I've been recording some music today. But that wasn't what I was supposed to say. What I was supposed to tell you about now, was that some weeks back, I ordered a single by The 69 Eyes (GREAT Finnish rock band, you should check them out, especially the albums "Wrap Your Troubles In Dreams", "Wasting The Dawn" and "Devils") which was in limited edition (500 editions) on a red vinyl. I GOT IT IN THE MAIL TODAY! It's supposed to have "Wrap Your Troubles In Dreams" (the song) as its A-side and "Stigmata (Gothic Mix)" as its B-side, but its A-side was "Call Me" (great cover song, where as the original one was made by the band Blondie). Not quite sure what the B-side is yet, because I'm recording it as I write. Now I've listened to it for some while, and it's Stigmata at the very least, not sure what kind of mix. But it's freakin' long!

I recommend EVERYONE interested in music (especially cult music, jazz, classic music or classic rock, since it's usually them who release vinyl, but basically, if your favorite bands release vinyls, GET ONE!) to get a vinyl player that can convert vinyl to digital files. The sound quality of a "fresh" (unused) vinyl is uncomperable to anything else, really. I'm gonna start storing these kind of vinyl files as .wav-files instead of .mp3-files as I used to, because they're much greater in quality (but takes up A LOT more space as well)!

Now I found out I can't edit the information on the songs in Ubuntu after I've saved them though, so I have to do that right away when editing. Weird thing is that I added an album, but it didn't pick up on that. But NOW I'm JUST talking to MYSELF, and that I can do fine WITHOUT blogging, so good bye!

(And now my dearly beloved blogging program, Blogilo, failed at posting this blog post. I hope it gets better soon)

The Look Of Love Is In Your Eyes

Title: Diana Krall - The Look Of Love

Today, I've been with the lovely ms Universe. She really is great! We were together yesterday as well. That was cool. We were at a Green Day concert, where Joan Jett & The Blackhearts (!) were the warm-up band. Green Day surprised me positively as a live band. I'd say it's the third best concert I've EVER been to! Don't think I've ever been looser at a concert either, which isn't really that loose.

But TODAY, me and my girlfriend were at my place. First, we went to the pharmacy to get me some nasal spray for my allergy. I ran empty of it last night, and I'm feeling like I'm sick, because I can nearly not breathe, and I keep coughing and I just...yeah, I feel a bit sick, but it'll hopefully get much better soon. Second, we went to buy a pair of headset to her. I had a coupon (which is kinda...weird to use, but still, cool). After that, we went home to my place, where we were just...cuddling and having fun and having a great time together. I love her SO MUCH!

12D3

Title: Gorillaz - 12D3

Just a quick blog post right here now: I feel like a good boy now, for listening through this entire electronic alternative hip hop pop album at once. It didn't leave many songs to be more...attractive, only perhaps the two last ones "Left Hand Suzuki Method" and "12D3". Other than that, "19-2000 (Soulchild Remix)", "Dracula", "Rock The House (Radio Edit)", "Clint Eastwood (Phi Life Cypher Version)" and "Ghost Train" are songs I remember from...9 years ago.

Get The Cool Shoeshine!

Title: Gorillaz - 19-2000

As I was sorting in last months CD's now, I figured out I should listen through those I've never listened to EVERYTHING on. So, at this moment, I'm "ripping" Gorillaz' "G Sides" to my computer. I'm gonna listen through it once, and then perhaps never again. Not sure why I haven't sold it, because I didn't even like it back when I bought it (I wanted "Gorillaz" by Gorillaz, but my dad convinced me that "G Sides" would get new hits on it and was the new thing by them...he was wrong).

My girlfriend's...somewhere in this fine country right now, on a bus with 30-100 15-16 year old people. I've got to admit, I don't really envy that. I'm pretty happy RIGHT HERE! On a strike with some demos recently recorded and trying to listen through a "new" CD. I'll probably watch Dr. Strangelove later today. I'm looking forward to it, and I'm thinking it'll be a new favorite movie. But then again, who knows?

The song I got my title from (19-2000) is pretty cool. Even though I'm listening to the Soulchild Remix of it.

I kinda wanna get some more garage rock in my collection. It's too little of it there. The only garage rock I REALLY have, is on a CD that came with an Uncut magazine, where the artists are described as "Bands that were punk before punk" or something like that. The Monks have a great song on it. And some others. But nothing by my favorite garage rock band (so far, The Monks MIGHT get that title later on), The Sonics.

I'm So Sick

Title: Flyleaf - I'm So Sick

Today, I've had a day off because of the strike. It started...crappy. I woke up feeling I had to throw up...and did, but I didn't have anything to throw up, so the only thing I got up, was spit and slime and stuff like that. And I had a head ache. I woke up at 7 AM! That's TOO EARLY when I've got a school break. 40 minutes, I woke up and "threw up" the same things again. Then I slept until 11 AM or something, and then I was fine, but still had a bit of a headache. I got breakfast in bed.

After that, I got up to watch The Godfather Part 2, which I actually liked better than Part 1. I thought it was just 2 hours, but it apperently was 3 hours long, but split on two discs. Didn't eat anything for lunch. BUT I got "Mars Attacks!" on DVD today from Play.com, so that was just so awesome! Gonna be watching films while ms Universe is gone, which she will start being as of tomorrow. I'll miss her. Everything's not okay at all time now a days, but we'll pull through. I know I love her, and I hope she still loves me back for real, and as long as you have love, everything else is figureable, right?

Probably will blog more these following days, but perhaps more on my other blog than on this one, which is: http://soniclizzzmobile.blogspot.com/ which I use my mobile phone to blog with.

Three Little Birds

Title: Bob Marley & The Wailers - Three Little Birds

Today - or perhaps rather now - I'm feeling really happy. My school's been taken out for strike. Not sure if it's the teachers or the cleaning personel that's on strike (perhaps they both are) but I'm not supposed to go to school until next monday now. Worst case scenario (I think) is that I've gotta go to school on Thursday, but I'll survive that as well.

Another reason to be happy, is that in the last lesson for today, we were just eating pizza and I got my mock exam back. I got a 4/5 on it. That's like C/B in American grades, I think. 6 is the highest grade possible to achieve and 1 is the lowest at least. So I'm pretty proud of myself on that one. Yet another reason to be happy, is that a DVD I had ordered, "Dr. Strangelove - Or: How I Learned To Stop Worrying And Love The Bomb" in a Collector's Edition. That's pretty cool, so might be watching that one a few times this week while I'm not doing anything. Probably will practice a lot on my guitar.

I was wearing my Tom Petty T-shirt to school today, by the way, and it got a laugh with the comment "So good" or something. Always like getting those kinda comments, especially for something so true as this T-shirt's message. So listen to Tom Petty: "Sell your computer, buy a guitar" ... or just buy a guitar, if you can afford that and hasn't already gotten one

Last Dance With Mary Jane

Title: Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers - Mary Jane's Last Dance

I thought it suited well to have this as a blog title now. Listening to the song, and I was gonna buy my cool T-shirt on this post anyways (look above!).

Now I'm dizzy again...that sucks...

Well, I'm gonna try to blog without reading now then. I think I'm doing well. with that. I usually write without looking anyways.

Today I've been celebrating my girlfriend's future birthday. It's not gonna be until 9th of June, but it's always nice to be early, ain't it? No, not really, but everyone's too busy with different things around her birthday, so this was the closest we could get. I always enjoy spending time with ms Universe and her family. Her family is the best there is. We were 22 people there to celebrate her birthday today! Also, they all seem to care about each other and ms Universe...while I on the other hand, haven't even heard my dad tell me he loves me since I was in Elementary School. I don't like my family. It would be okay, if at least they were nice, but my dad seems to hate me, and they're all just so...cruel.

But back to the birthday celebration of today. What more was there to say? It was a great day, lots of guests, and I always enjoy celebrating things with ms Universe and her family without mine being there. After the "party", I had to get back to my town, and so I had to take the train. Me and my girlfriend's had some...troubles since then. But things are straightening out now. That's what it's like to be with perfect ms Universe. Things might get bumpy on the road of our relationship, but they keep straightening out.

Tomorrow's filled up with school, and that's not so...nice. The "bumpyness" has made me not being able to read for my physics test this evening, and since I haven't read before either, the test will go shit...and it's tomorrow..."yes!".

I'm a bit...away from my mind today, so I may have forgotten to write about something. Don't know why I'm like this today, but I've been like it since I woke up this morning. I'm not sure about a lot of things. And what's real and what's made up, is hard for me to seperate these days.

Somethin' Else

Title: Eddie Cochran - Somethin' Else

Eddie Cochran really was something else. He became 21 years, but still managed to revolutionate the world of music within these few years. He used overdubbing in his recording before it was commonly known in music studio technique. I myself, have to admit that I pick up a LOT of influence in my music from Eddie Cochran. It's usually not listenable, but some songs CAN be traced back to it.

I'm listening a lot to Eddie Cochran lately. It's great rockabilly from the 50's...at least some of it. Some songs are just...not that cool, but DO check out "Nervous Breakdown", "Somethin' Else", "C'Mon Everybody", "Summertime Blues" and some songs I don't remember at this very moment. My two favorites, are "Somethin' Else" and "Nervous Breakdown".

But now, I'm gonna talk about me instead of mr. Eddie. Today, I've been with my lovely girlfriend, ms Universe. Her name isn't REALLY ms Universe, but she's the prettiest, cutest, most perfect girl in the universe, so I call her that on this blog...from now on. But yeah, me and ms Universe was together today. We were for a long time in a shopping center, then we went home to hers. We almost fell asleep. We took a quick bite and left my backpack there, and then we left to see the soccer match of Norway playing against Montenegro. Norway won 2-1. It was fun to watch a soccer game with ms Universe. Then we went home to hers, catched my backpack, stayed for a short while, before I had to go catch a train.

We're luckily going to meet again tomorrow. Can hardly wait. If I manage to do so, I'll try to upload an image or two from today's soccer match later on, but probably not before tomorrow.

Have Love, Will Travel

Title: The Sonics (originally by Barrett Strong) - Have Love Will Travel

I've been playing the riff of the song I picked this blog post's title from about 50-100 times today. It's still a kick-ass riff, which is best served...LOUD! But unfortunately, I do not have anything by The Sonics in my collection.

Today's been a good school day. I didn't start until 09.55, and then I only had one math lesson, before I had one lesson where the subject of matter was spare time or free, if you'd like. Since NO ONE would sit with me in our classroom, I eventually went home with my moped. I don't like being alone at school. It's so...lonely. At home, I fixed Ubuntu's panel (it had removed "Programs", "Places" and "System", which pretty much makes you disabled), checked out some bank stuff, and played the James Bond theme song like 35 times or so. I was practising making me play it perfect and FAST! I think I partially succeeded in that. After having played some guitar, I got quite bad with time for getting back to school, and since it rained, it was quite cold to get back there. I had physics, and of course, my lazy ass friend didn't show up. When I was driving my moped home, I saw him outside, cycling around on his bike. I was tempted to flip him the bird (giving him the finger), but I didn't.

After I got home, I've been playing guitar and spending time on my computer most of the time. At the moment, I'm watching a Peter Pan movie, and trying to install iTunes on my 100 GB portable school computer, and try to have my old iTunes library installed there, without having all the files on that computer, and then update my Last.fm-plays from my iPod. I REALLY hope it works!

Loving Cup

Title: The Rolling Stones - Loving Cup

I've had a WONDERFUL day with my girlfriend today! It was really something special! I was there so early, that almost no stores had opened yet. When they did, we visited a music store we've never been to before, which had ONLY classic (not like Led Zeppelin and stuff, but like Mozart and shit) music as you could see when you entered. Upstairs, they had lots of notebooks for artists, bands, albums, genres and so on. Also, they had some guitars, an ukulele, some mandorins and some other musical instruments and accessories.

After we got out of there, we went to...I don't really remember! I think we went to...get me a ticket? I honestly don't know. But at least, after some time in the city, we went a bit out of the centrum, and into a rock merch store. I came out with 5 buttons and two T-shirt, one by Tom Petty which it stood "Sell your computer, buy a guitar" on (which was an awesomely true saying) and the other was an Abbey Road T-shirt by The Beatles, which was black, blue and white and grey, which was AWESOME!

After that, we went home to my girlfriend's, and we ordered a pizza. We took a bus to pick it up along with buying two cokes. When we got home, we watched "Big Fish" (a favorite movie of mine...I cried a bit at the end of it this time as well) and ate pizza, and just relaxed and it was so cozy and nice! She fell asleep on my chest. She's the cutest thing ever!

We ate dinner together (tomato soup for appetizers and pancakes as main course), and then I had to take the train home. We were JUST short of being together for 11 hours! That's SO nice! Tomorrow we won't meet, but the day after that, we're going to a soccer match together. Can't WAIT!!!!!...to see and kiss and hold her in my arms again

Don't Do Me Like That

Title: Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers - Don't Do Me Like That

I don't think I should blog about today right now, because I'm just not in that mood at this very moment. Right now, I'm jealous. I'm jealous because my girlfriend is surrounded by boys she've liked before me, and I think they all look better than me, and they can sing and play guitar really well, and it's just...I can't take it EXACTLY RIGHT NOW!

I can feel her all over me. I can feel that she's been on me today. I like that feeling. I like it a lot. In a way. Today it's great, because it's not more than one-day break from each other.

I'm scared shitless of losing her. She's really ALL I've got and EVERYTHING I've EVER wanted!!!!

And now the room is spinning...always fun getting dizzy...

I've quit going to my physical therapist, so it MIGHT have something to do with that. My mom wants me to have a break to just try to go the chiropractor again.

Now the room's spinning so heavily, that I've gotta quit blogging and turn on my lights. Have a nice...something!

Everybody's Gotta Love Today

Title: Mika - Love Today

I just got it on my mind, and really, you've gotta love today! It's nice weather, no school despite it being Wednesday, but EVERYTHING'S open, my girlfriend's got no school as well, we got to meet, we've been great together (some days are better than others, and the "better together"-days are A LOT of lately...lucky me!) and guess what? TOMORROW'S GOT NO SCHOOL EITHER! As well, I just ordered two DVD's I've been wanting for a LONG time, and on Friday, I'm starting late because the gymnastics teacher is a national champion in his field and is in a national championship.

This week is awesome.

I Wanna Hold You, Wanna Hold You Tight (Get Teenage Kicks Right Through The Night)

The title of this blog post is from the song "Teenage Kicks" by The Undertones. It's a great song. One of my favorites, probably. I just never seems to get QUITE enough of it, despite me usually getting pretty quickly bored with songs about teenage romance...and other teenage things. But yeah, thumbs up HIGH for "Teenage Kicks" by The Undertones.

TODAY's been a great day spent with my girlfriend! We had a great day, which was spent on walking around in my town, then taking the bus home to me, and after that, we took a ride on my scooter. That was GREAT! I liked it A LOT, but I'm a BIT scared of that I've frightened her about it, but it doesn't really seem like she's scared about it. We took some pictures, and had a great time! Then we went home, had ourselves a hot chocolate drink each and a TexMex wrap. Special combination, but it was all right.
After that, we just spent the day relaxing, kissing, tickling and just having a GREAT day! OH! And I got some condoms in my mail today...always a bit...embarresing.

Tomorrow, we'll be at her city. I'm looking forward to seeing her again. It'll be SO great! We're also gonna be meeting both days this weekend (which sadly for you, might make me blog less this weekend). I can REALLY not wait for meeting her again! And this weekend is gonna be the best!

Now I'm feeling like I'm SUCH a teenager, so I'll stop bloging now. Have a great day!

Career Opportunities

Well, this title kinda fits my day today, as I've been to the career adviser at school today about me quiting school (for a year) and moving out for myself and starting working for a living. I'm looking forward to it. And I'm most likely gonna get back to school after this year off, but most likely, not here.
Anyways, the adviser's a great guy, who seems to understand me, and he actually REMEMBERS ME, despite having like 1000 other students he's also responsible for!

After I got home, I started talking a lot with my mom about moving out as well, and it seems like the stones are rolling in the direction of me ACTUALLY moving out!!! It's kinda crazy! Only thing is...I've gotta tell my dad...hehe...

(We Don't Need) No More Trouble

This song I'm listening to right now (Bob Marley's "No More Trouble" from Catch A Fire) fits me very well right now. I don't feel like me and my girlfriend needs any more trouble right now. We've had our share for a long time. I'm just so jealous, because I'm afraid of losing her. She's WAY too good for me...and I hope she never realizes that, and leaves me, because I do NOT know what to do without her!

I'm feeling that I can't handle my feelings quite as well as before anymore, and that I'm becoming more whiny and needy and that I'm just becoming a worse boyfriend overall. I feel I'm in the way of her having a good time, and that I should just not be in her life anymore, because she doesn't need me as much as I need her, and I'm just taking up space and keeping her away from everything she cares about.

How I ever got her, will forever be a mystery. I'm a mistake, she's perfect.

Proto-1940 style photo effect

I just think this picture that I took is pretty awesome. It kinda looks like it's taken from out of a horror movie from the 30's. At least I think so. It's really just a picture taken with my cell phone of my room in the dark, and then I tried to use PhotoDJ (a built-in photo editing program on my cell phone), and then I did something I don't remember, and it looked like this. Hope you enjoy!

Rain

It's raining now. It was sunny when I woke up this morning. I used to love it when it rained, and hate the sun, but now, rain and dark weather makes me scared. I'm afraid of it. Terrified, to be quite honest. It's okay when I'm not alone, but being alone while it's "dark weather" (cloudy, rainy and such), is a nightmare.

I wished earlier today that I was alone though. It was sunny then. I had a revelation about what I wanna do with my music today. But I couldn't do it, because I'm not home alone. I'm thinking of moving out. Moving to Oslo, being alone a lot, but still feeling better than I do here. It's okay here, I guess, but this is not my home. I haven't felt like this is my home since I was 12. I'm 18 now. I haven't really had a home, before I met my girlfriend. I can really picture me being with her forever. I started being alive and not just compressing myself and not letting all my feelings stay inside, when I got to know her. She's perfect for me, but I don't think she realizes that at all time. Maybe sometimes. I'll spend my entire life proving that for her if I have to. After all, I wanna be with her for the rest of my life, so why not spend it trying to make sure she knows how I feel about her at the same time? I love her more than words can explain, and I know it might seem silly to say, but she's my soul mate. She really is.

I'm listening to Bob Marley now. There's something about his music that's not just happy. There's something tormented there. Not sure if that's just me, but I like it. Some songs doesn't really have that feel to it, but "Concrete Jungle", which I'm listening to now, does. "Three Little Birds" is quite a nice and cheery song. But now I gotta start listening more to the one Bob Marley album I've got, which is Catch A Fire (in deluxe edition).

Tomorrow's got school. I'm not looking forward to having school now. I'm gonna see the adviser about me moving for myself to Oslo, working at a record shop. I can't live like I do right now. It's just too hurtful on my feelings and the one person that can help me, lives in Oslo. I'll blog about how that went tomorrow. But now I don't feel like blogging anymore

Idolize Yourself

I'm in bit of a Billy Idol-period right now. Probably is because I recently bought the album "Idolize Yourself: The Very Best Of Billy Idol".

I recently got myself a new hard disc drive. I recked my old one, by hitting my computer too hard. Instead of using Windows 7 or Windows Vista or something like that now, I'm using Ubuntu, because when I ordered the new hard drive, I forgot to think about operative system. Only bad thing about Ubuntu, is the handling of my iPod and scrobbling music to Last.fm.

Other than that, I'm now enjoying my day off just sitting in front of my computer, listening to Billy Idol and The Undertones and starting this blog. I kinda like making a new blog. Probably is why I've made a couple of them. But I got a good feeling for this one. I think it'll be something quite special, and I quite enjoy dealing with it so far.