Title: The Monks - That's My Girl
I know I'm not blogging a lot lately, but I'm just not in that mood lately. But now there's no one to talk to, and I'm all alone and I'm crying, so I decided I should write here, because...I don't know what else to do. But I don't know what to write here either, so...never mind
Title: Joy Division - Shadowplay (may have heard The Killers' cover version of this song, which is a great cover)
This song inspire me. I can't get Joy Division out of my brain. never. It'll always be luring there. No matter my happiness and no matter the music I'm listening to. Shadowplay haunts me the most. Lyrically, that is. Other than that, "Atrocity Exhibition" haunts me. I'll bet the drum beat of that song is the beat of my heart. It won't go away.
I don't know why, but I never write anymore. Maybe it's because I don't have the time. Maybe it's because I don't like writing down all my thoughts like I used to, no matter how impulsive they were. Maybe it's because I'm not thinking anymore. Maybe it's because I can't.
I don't know the exact reason why, but I want to write again. I don't know what, but I want to write something. If only it's my blog, telling people what I think, despite there probably only being less than 5 people reading it. You should be happy if you can please at least one person in this cruel world. I think my mentor John Dorian (Zach Braff's character in Scrubs) taught me that. It's a good rule of thumb.
I wish I could be great again. I probably hasn't reached my greatest moments yet, but I feel like me as a person is on a downhill. I used to be brilliant. I think I could be whatever I wanted to be. It's not too late yet. I think I feel this way a lot because my dad keeps letting me know I was better at school and everything before. I don't know if I'm really good at anything I can make a living out of anymore. I think I can be a great artist, but I don't think anyone will put their money on me, so I think I'll fade away and perhaps one band or something will be inspired by my songs, 30 years after my death, and covering one of the songs. I don't know. I know I can write...or at least that I could.
I felt like I could write like a God for a while. But I don't feel that way anymore. Getting A's stopped being such a big deal when I heard EVERYONE was getting them somewhere else. I never got an A in anything besides English. Now I hear about lots of people getting A's on their exams, which I was one of three to get an A in. I hate being told I wasn't as great as I think I was. I feel like people keep reminding me of that, and that just makes me...it makes me want to just explode a large area of the world and just show everyone exactly HOW great I CAN be. But I never will. I'm too busy. People don't see me as busy, but I am. I'm busy being what I always knew I'd try to be my best at. Lately, I haven't been so busy with that, and it's noticeable. I'm learning a lot of things, but I'm not being so good at what I was ment to be.
I need to become something great to show the world I CAN be better than people at something, because right NOW, I feel like I suck so much I shouldn't really be with people. I have dreams of going to a cabin with all my instruments and having a recording studio all set up for me there, and just record a whole lot of stuff and make masterpieces. It probably will never happen, but I wish I could. I wish I could forget about all the bad things I've heard of. They just keep getting more and more, and I just let them flow against me.
I've become something people laugh of, when I used to be someone people admired. Try it, and you will feel how hard it is.
Title: Johnny Cash - Get Rhythm
Some days are just perfect for Johnny Cash music. I'm not gonna lie to you, I can NOT listen to Johnny Cash at any given day, but today, it suits me to listen to my new Johnny Cash CD. Or should I say "new", since it's his very first recordings. The Sun Recordings. Those legendary Sun Recordings. But I like them. I guess I'm a bit Johnny Cash-mainstream, because I like the Sun Recordings, At Folsom Prison, At San Quentin and the American recordings best. But then again, I haven't listened to much other by him than those recordings either, so what do I know.
I've been listening to Pavement until now. Since I bought two deluxe CD's by them, I figured I should listen a bit. I liked "The Killing Moon" cover of the Echo & The Bunnymen song, which was a good thing I did. I think I liked the album itself as well of "Brighten The Corners" and "Crooked Rain Crooked Rain".
I don't really know what to do today, because I suddenly fixed my major problem, miss Universe is busy it seems and not with me, and I've been checking for jobs (none really for me, since I don't know ANYTHING about cars other than the basics, and I've got allergy, so I couldn't work as a flowerist), and I've read up a bit on Ubuntu. Becoming adult isn't always much fun. It's better when you're growing up with someone (like I am with miss Universe).
I hate how my parents acts towards me. They keep treating me like I'm a little child. I'm afraid of never getting rid of them, because they're really holding me back. If only the world was like I'd want it to be.
Title: The Beatles - Yesterday
I thought this was a good time to write a blog post at. I just fixed the sound on my computer! It hasn't worked for quite a few days, which was QUITE annoying, especially when I wanted to see a movie or something with miss Universe, which I'll get back to. This post is to be posted...LONG after I've written it (I wrote it at 01.31 AM at Friday 9th of July).
You see, the past seven days, I've been with miss Universe EVERY DAY! And it has just been the best week EVER! We're amazingly close! But the best part has been left out to tell you yet...I think. She came to me five days ago and was here till yesterday (or Wednesday, that is). Which means, she slept her for three nights! Those three nights were the first time we slept together (in its litteral meaning, not sex). First night was a bit hot, but the other two nights were just amazingly perfect. I loved sleeping with her by my side SO much! I hope we can do it again soon!
Today, I've been with her and seen the last Shrek-movie...in 3D at the cinema! We've had a day that I don't feel like sharing too much with you (I'll share it with my diary instead), but I CAN tell you that we started a book circle, consisting of only the two of us, which is the best circle I can think of! First book to read is Agatha Christie's "4.50 From Paddington". I'm looking forward to starting! I rarely look THIS much forward to reading a book, but this one I do. We both bought ourselves one version each.
Now it'll be quite some time before I see miss Universe again, because she's going on a holiday with her dad. I hope she'll have a great trip. I really do! But she mustn't forget about me though, because I'll be at home missing her and still being IN love with her, so I don't want her to get a new boyfriend or anything. Yes, I'm EXTREMELY jealous, but luckily in a way, so is she, so it's tolerated in our relationship.
Oh, and by the way, for those who are MADLY interested in what I buy, the last blog post (or something) where I said I'd bought some vinyls, I forgot to mention Violent Femmes' "Hallowed Ground"
Title: Neil Young - On The Beach
After having a REALLY short post yesterday, I now am going to give y'all a bit of a longer update.
On...Tuesday last week, I went to England, Brighton to be precise. At least I think it was Tuesday. But yeah, I've been to Brighton, and it was like going to the warm south, but not going all that south, and had lots of people talking and understanding English (since it is in England). It was nice there, and I'd like to go back there again with my girlfriend, miss Universe, because it was a great place to go with your loved one.
Then, after being there till...Friday, I went to London. I've been to the Hard Rock Calling festival, but "only" from The Hives on on the main stage on Friday, and the full Sunday but again, only on the main stage. Paul McCartney was GREAT! And I was REALLY positively surprised by Elvis Costello's show as well, because I like bluegrass-concerts, and he held one, to my surprise.
I've bought some DVD's and CD's while I was in England, though.
CD's:
-Muse - Origin Of Symmetry
-Vampire Weekend - Contra
-Bo Diddley - Bo Diddley/Go Bo Diddley (2CD)
-Black Sabbath - Sabbath Bloody Sabbath (Remastered Edition)
-Pink Floyd - A Saucerful Of Secrets
-J. Tillman - I Will Return/Long May You Run, J. Tillman (2CD)
-Vera Lynn - Gold: 100 Songs From A Life In Music (5CD)
-Johnny Cash - Walking The Line: The Legendary Sun Recordings (3CD)
-The Stone Roses - The Stone Roses: 20th Anniversary Legacy Edition (2CD + DVD)
-Pavement - Brighten The Corners: Nicene Creedence Ed. (2CD)
-Pavement - Crooked Rain Crooked Rain: L.A.'s Desert Origins (2CD)
DVD's:
-Full Metal Jacket (Deluxe Edition)
-Definitely, Maybe
-The Lost Boys
-The Ex
-2001: A Space Odyssey (Digitally Restored And Remastered)
-Public Enemies
-Casablanca
-Dog Day Afternoon (Two Disc Special Edition)
-The Searchers (Two-Disc Special Edition)
-Taxi Driver
-Nowhere Boy (Limited Edition: Includes exclusive Sam Taylor-Wood photo album)
Other than that, I was at the "We Will Rock You"-musical, which I've been to before, and I liked it this time as well, but in a different more knowledgeable way.
Well, I got back home on...Wednesday, was it? Yeah, at the end of the Wednesday I got back home. On Thursday, I was visited by the lovely miss Universe (my girlfriend), which was a LOVELY day! We didn't do much at all, really, but what we did, was SO SUPER NICE! We just layed around in my room all day, really, and had a VERY big dinner, which made my little girl very ill, so she didn't feel too well afterwards. Not because the food was bad, but quite the opposite. It was so good that she ate too much. I had to take a bit care of her then, which was nice as well.
On Friday, which was yesterday, I went to her place. We were at her bank, since she was depositing some money. Then we went to get a McFlurry each (yes, we eat McDonald's ice cream, and it was LOVELY!), and then we went to this great record store where you can buy used vinyls and CDs or new CDs and vinyls and everything, where I'm trying to get a job, and there was bought some vinyls.
Vinyl's bought:
-Paul McCartney - Tug Of War
-John Lennon & Yoko Ono - Double Fantasy
-The Cars - The Cars
-Leonard Cohen - Songs Of Leonard Cohen
-Coldplay - Life In Technicolor II (which is my girlfriend's)
and I bought an album I can't remember the name of now, which had some of the best songs by Jerry Lee Lewis, Carl Perkins and Eddie Cochran + the platters or something.
After we'd been there, we went to a place to buy me a bottle opener to have on my key chain, which we were to use on a bottle of coca cola on glass for each of us. We went to the opera and sat on the roof there and drank them up, then we went inside after having been on the roof for a long time, and sat inside just talking for a really long time...until we were chased out, actually. Then we pretty soon went to hers after I had purchased a card which makes me able to take as many buses and such in her region for thirty days. And we ate dinner there, and then I had to go home.
Today I was at my girlfriend's place again, but neither one of us were feeling all quite well to begin with, so we went home to hers almost right away, and just hung out all day. We saw the movie "The Beach", by the way. I went home before the dinner was to be eaten there.
Tomorrow, she's coming here for a sleepover which lasts till the upcoming Wednesday. I CAN NOT WAIT!
Title: The Beatles - Rock & Roll Music
It's been a great fucking long time without any blogging now, so I'm gonna give y'all a quick update:
I'M BACK FROM ENGLAND!
Now for a longer update, check in at this blog TOMORROW!
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